I've been seeing a therapist for several months (really just three times) and this last time she suggested that I might be depressed. Sigh! Now I feel like I'm wasting time thinking about being depressed and it's making me depressed. I thought I was happy until now. What's worse about it is that I got some really good advice about motivation. And now I'm having trouble focusing on that advice because I might need drugs to solve my problems.
The advice given to me was: when I'm feeling lazy and I should be doing work, I need to ask myself, "what am I saying about me right now? Am I not important?"
It seems that I haven't thought of myself as important. I guess I never asked. I've always thought of myself as important to others: at work, at home, in my family. But I haven't told me, "you is kind, you is smart, you is important." Hopefully I can focus on that advice rather than I need to be drugged advice. It's funny how the devil works.
