sleepless

you ever just can't sleep. Toss and turn all you want. You think you know your body, "I love to sleep on my stomach," but that doesn't work. I'll listen to some music only leads you to listening to the whole 90 minutes of the sleep button. Damn another hour awake. You go downstairs, get some tea, warm your belly, back into bed, but nothing. You yawn naturally. You think, "see I want to go to sleep. Go to sleep you stupid body." But nothing. You just sit up and think about things: old things, new things, things that haven't happened, things you expected, things that surprised you, things you wonder if they are true. You think about you long day and how a few hours ago you were passed out on the couch, made your move to bed and now you're stuck being up.

What the hell? I got a long tomorrow. Not a nervous day at all, but I have to start early so staying up all night is not a good look. Its all in my mind. I wonder if stupid people have this problem. I guess I can expect this every once in awhile. Just not tonight though. Not tonight.

what about grace and mercy?

when there is nothing left to say, smack a muthaf_ker in the face. That should be a quote in some movie or something. And then later, when the weaker character is asked a question that he has no answer to, he smacks his friend in the face. It'd be funny. Sometimes though I feel like smack people in the face. Just for asking stupid questions. When I say no, I say no. No one else is going to help, or I at least I'm not going to find anybody else for you. That becomes your job.

I think we as humans need a dose of violence every once in awhile, male and female. That's why we watch these violent movies and play these violent games because this docile life we claim to want is all boring and actually more tense. Think about it. When faced with adversity with someone and you choose not to physically fight them, your stress level sky rockets to a point where you feel like you want to kill someone. Now if you were "allowed" to fight in the first place, your stress would not be as elevated.

It'd be funny if right before a fight announcers (nearby witnesses) would call the fight like the game streetfigher. And after the fight is over everything would go back to normal. Nobody would die but things would get solved quicker.



This is a beautiful interpretation.

update

new money, get money, spend money, its all about the money. I've noticed that a lot of songs out right now in hip hop is all about money. True this is not some revelation, but everybody at once is talking about money. I think that is the main thing about these artist now, follow a trend. A couple years ago it was about booty shaking video girls, now its money. Is hip hop just a form of mimicry that we should appreciate. Not many artists, even conscious rapper, come up with new ideas in rap. Its just the same ol' "let me tell you about my hood and how much money I make."

Anywho, enough about rap. I'm repainting my house. My half bath is gonna be crazy. The color is purple and I got hand towels to match. But the way I'm painting it is amazing. Six inch stripes on three walls that leads to a full wall with a mural. You got it. Fresh.